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Wednesday 26 September 2012

Rainy Day ^^

It has been a long time do not update about myself. So, today I wanted to tell something about. Something happened on this day. *ecehh! Bajet gila wa speaking English.

From morning until evening, the rain is not going to stop. Kalau stop pun it just for awhilelah. Tapi tersangatlah best bila angin bertiup kencang even agak cuak takut rebut taufan datang. Nauzubillah.  Then, tadi aku, Nelly, Aen and Anis buat kepala gila nak g redah je hujan yang at first renyai-renyai. Kita orang stop ah dulu dekat  public phone because Anis want to make a called. Nelly also want to do the same thing, but sayang seribu kali sayang… otaknya tidak mampu mengingati number phone her mom. Ish.. ishh. Nelly.. Nelly. Tapi memang gila betul kot. Kita orang terpaksa berhimpit-himpit nak tumpang public phone punya bumbung. Nak avoid hujan yang tengah lebat.
So kat situ ada dialog sikit. Agak sama.

Madi : Jomlah makan bakso dohh.

Nelly : Eh? Bukan Hayat habaq tadi kedai bakso tutup ka?

Agak spoilt jugak di situ. Hayat yang suka menokok nambah story.

So kat situ memang exciting gila nak g makan bakso. Siap bawak duit lebih 
nak g perabih dekat kedai bakso enn. Aku ni tak sampai hati nak tengok perut main irama sedih gila bhaii sebab tak sumbat makanan.

Madi : Jomlah makan dohhh.

Aen : Hujanlah…

Anis : Ha’aa.. hujannn..

Madi : Adoiyaii. Takpe biar aku g usher kedai tu bukak ke tak.

So dengan rela hati gila aku g lah redah hujan usha kedai bakso tu bukak ke dakk! Alhamdulillah… bukak jugak akhirnyaaa! Ecewahh. Gembira tak terkata.

Madi : Bakso bukaklah. Jom makan!

Aen : Jommm!

Semua pakat setuju nak redah hujan yang lebat bukan main lagi kan. Dengan rasa relaks bin selamber badak, kita orang jalan with the cool style. Even ada certain mata usher kita orang pelik. Ada kisahh doh? Kasut sekolah time tu, tak yah wa nak cakaplah… memang lencun. Sekali stoking diperap. Perghhh. Kalau bukak konpemm! Konpem bau kaw kaw punya! Letak dalam sungai pun, semua ikan boleh timbul. Muahaahaha. Okey tak lawak!

Then, time makan bakso time panas-panas. Perghhh! Memang gila best owwww!!!! Nikmatnyaa bakso kuu. Auwww!!!

Hahahaa. Tu je kot!

Madi : Esok aku tak nak datanglah!

Aen : Betuii ahh?

Madi : Betullah. Aku bajet aku demam ah nanti.

Anis : aku pun tak nak datang jugak!

Nelly : Aku pun.. kasut basah gilaaa baq hang. Dah laa bucur.

Madi : Jom pakat ponteng.

Aen : Kalau nak ponteng konpem awai-awai. Dah laa aku takde benda nak contact.

Madi : Heheehe. Konpemm ahhh!

Di situ kita orang berempat pakat tak mau datanggg! Yey! Ada perkara negative terselit disitu yehh. Mememeemememe. Ada kisah! Hahahaha.
So kesimpulannya, wa sanggup grab apa yang wa nak. Even terpaksa buat apa-apa je! Gila baikkan! Kan bagus kalau buat gini waktu nak belajaq! Belajaq kena usha! Nak Berjaya kena ada usaha! Tak guna doa panjang berjela tapi takde usaha langsung. Pasrah mu dihh sebelum usaha. Tak gunaa!

#good points *erkk. Ada relate ke? Ohohohoho. Tu je kot…
Akhir kata, it rainy day…. ^_^ Wassalam.

A short sad love story "Day by Day"


“WE BROKE UP!!! AND I WANT TO END THIS KIND OF RELATIONSHIP!!!”

A painful word come out of her mouth really make that guy shocked. He doesn’t believe the words that come out from her mouth. And he aslo doesn’t want to hear it again. It’s hurt and painful.

     “Noo. You’re lying me, Han Ga In. Serious.. and i know you’re lying me..”

Ga In looks away. She not dare and bravery to look at Jae Joong face.

     “I’m not lying you, Hero...”

Jae Joong still not believed what he just heard. Thus, he grasped both sides of the shoulder belong to Ga In.

     “I know you’re lying me... You just make a jokes, right? Tell me this a jokes, Ga In-ah... Please tell me this a jokes..”

Both hands of Jae Joong which is touch Ga In both shoulder was pushed by Ga In.

     “Once i said... I’m not lying you... We have no any relationship after this. You’ve to accept this...”

     “Noo... Ga In.. Don’t leave me.. What’s wrong with you? Am i doing something wrong that make you have to be like this? Tell me what should i do to repay back my mistakes...”

     “Noo.. I just...”

     “Just what, Ga In-ah? Just what? Why are you being like this?”

     “Huh, whatever. What i know, i just want to broke up with you. That’s all. And from now on, you’re not my lover..”

     “Please Ga In. Don’t you know how much i need you, huh? It’s so hard and hurt my heart to accept all of this. No.. I will not let you go...”

No responds. Ga In just kept quite.

     “Ga In-ah.. Anwser mee... please answer.. Tell me what should i doo? Arghhh. Ottokae...”

He don’t know what should he do right now. Jae Joong who is better known as Hero is looking at beautiful face belong to Ga In. He knows Ga In doesn’t mean it.

     “Hmm.. If you want to pay me back, just stay away from me. Please get rid of my life. I don’t want to see you anymore...”

     “I can’t do that, Ga In. It’s hard! Please Ga-In... don’t be like this.... “ Ga In hand raised by Jae Joong but she refused it. Pushed Jae Joong’s hands away.

     “Goodbye, Hero...”

After saying goodbye, she runs away leaving Jae Joong who is being speechless after heard that those word.
He just watch Ga In leave him. So far... and far away. After Ga In that farther, then he thought that he should not let Ga In go just like that. If he still love Ga In, he has to grap Ga In not just by seeing she goes away.

Jae Joong paved the way for the pursuit of Ga In. But it’s too late. Ga In now is in the bus. And that bus is going to move. But Jae Joong still not give up and try to grap that bus.

     “GA IN-AH!!!!! GA-IN AHHH!!!! GAJIMAA!!! GAJIMAAAA!!!! JEBAL GAJI MAL-AYO!!!!! GA IN-AH.. Arghhhh!!!!”

Jae Joong split his ankle and fell on the road. The bus still move without realise Jae Joong is chasing that bus. But Jae Joong still used his own energy to get up and grap that bus to take Ga In. But it’s too late. And Jae Joong already tired because he don’t have any kind of energy. He knelt on the road release the tiredness of chasing Ga In. He feel regret and crying. He cried and shout Ga In.

GA IN AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Ga In who is the only one in that buscan feel that Jae Joong is to catch the bus. She cried. And cried. Then, she looked back and see Jae Joong was knelt on the road.

     “Miahne, Hero-ah... I didn’t means for what i said to you... i’ve to do that... I don’t want you getting involve in my hurt business. It will hurt you soon. And i want you to be happy but your happiness doesn’t had to me but another girl...... Miahne.. Heroo.. I’m still loving you... Miahne saranghae.....” She still crying while saying that those word. If only Jae Joong can heard that.......


***

Ga In sit down beside and look at his friend, L.Joe. And L.Joe looked at the beautiful lake in front of them. L.Joe was a best friend to Ga In since they was child. But they was separated when L.Joe have to move up to Callifornia. And now L.Joe is back. Even though before L.Joe live far apart,but both of them always contact each other without Jae Joong knows.

     “L.Joe-ah....”

L.Joe turned to look at Ga In. “Ga In-ahh. You face.. why it looks so pale?”

     “Pale? My face? It’s nothing. Just ignored it...”

     “Hmm..”

     “L.Joe-ah...”

     “Yes, Ga In. What’s wrong?” L.Joe felt so worried when seeing the pale of Ga In’s face. Ga In also looked so weak lately.

     “Hmm. Can i make a request? And i want you to fullfil my wishes.”

L.Joe felt so weird. He just smile as long as he can. “What is your wishes, dear chingu?”

Ga In hold her breathe for a while before release it. She bit her own lips before start a words.

     “I want you to pretending as my boyfriend...”

L.Joe was speechless heard that wishes. Isn’t bit much?

     “Mwoya?? But... why? Wae?” L.Joe aksed to be sure.

     “I want you to pretending as my boyfriend. Just for a while. It’s fake. Not for the real. Jebal...” Her voice were so weak. Very weak. And her face getting more pale. L.Joe realise that.

L.Joe just silent. He’s thinking of Ga In’s wishes.

     “If you thought me as your best friend, please do it. I really hope that, L.Joe... Who knows.. it will be my last request.”

     “What do you means, Ga In?” L.Joe becoming more weird with Ga In’s word. But he still looked at the beautiful lake in front of them.

His question has no response from Ga In. Then, he turn back to look what Ga In doing. As soon as he looked at Ga In, he was shocked. Ga In nose is bleeding.

     “Ga In-ah... Are you okay?” L.Joe touched Ga In’s cheek.

Ga In just smiled and said weakly. “It’s nothing L.Joe... I asked you for the last time... would you be my fake boyfriends?”

L.Joe panicked and just agreed with that. He’s willing to do so if it will make Ga In better. He don’t want to lost his precious Ga In. Ga In is more important to him than everyone that he knows.

     “Ga In-ahh.. Ga In-ahh.. Open your eyes.. do you hear me, dear chingu? Yaa!! Ga In yaaa!”


L.Joe slowly slapped Ga In’s cheek but he had nothing. No response. Her nose still non stop bleeding yet. L.Joe becoming worried so he just lift Ga In’s body and run to his car.

***

Jae Joong still in anguish. He can’t accept the fact that he had nothing with Ga In. His maknae, Changmin or as known as Max looked at him. He felt so pity to his hyung. What can he do to make his hyung smile again like before?

     “Hyung-ah..”

Jae Joong looked at his maknae with the sadness face.

     “How long hyung.. how long you are going to be like this? You seem slipshod.. Please hyung.. don’t be like this...”

     “You don’t know anything, Max... It’s hard to me to go through with all this...”

     “Huh, please hyung. There’s nothing that you can do if you still being like this. just sit and not doing anything.”

     “Ib dagchyeo, Max... i said you don’t know anything. You never fallen in love...”

     “Hyung...”

     “I don’t want to hear anything.... Just stay away from me... Jebal.. i need a time to be alone...”

Nothing that Changmin can do. He just go out of his hyung’s room. Hyuk Jae or Jae who was at the living room stare at Changmin.

     “Max. What’s wrong with you?”

Changmin just sit on sofa one seater in front of  Hyuk Jae. Hyuk Jae also his hyung too.

     “Hyung-ah... I felt pity with Hero hyung..”

      “Wae?”

      “You know about Ga In noona?”

Hyuk Jae just nodded with serious face.

     “I don’t know what to do... seriously, i can’t stand seeing hyung being like that. Really...”

     “Hmm.. i think we have to do something. Yeah,, we have to do something.”

Changmin tipped his brow while looking at Hyuk Jae. Hyuk Jae approached Changmin and whisper something. Changmin nodded and smile. There’s something that they gonna do to make Jae Joong smile back like before.

***

Changmin stopped his car near to amusement park. In the car, there was Hyuk Jae. They’re waiting for Jae Joong.

     “Max-ah.. Where is Hero hyung?”

Changmin shook his head because his is knowing nothing.

     “Hmm.. i think i need to find Hero Jae Joong. You just wait in the car while i find our hyung.” Changmin nodded and smile.

Hyuk Jae just get out of the car and find Jae Joong. Hyuk Jae think that Jae joong, along with Hyun Joong.
Changmin waited in the car. When he was in the car, he saw something. Jyeah. It’s seem familiar with both of them who standing behind his car. He looked at the mirror. Try to identify that partner. They’re like a couples.

     “Ga In noona?” Changmin knows that girl. That’s Ga In. He was very shocked. “And... who is standing beside her? What are they doing....? Err... Is she cheating with Hero hyung and is that the reason why she doesn’t want to continue their relationship..? Arghh... seriously...”

They were seen holdings hand each other. That guy flicked Ga In’s hair and touch Ga In’s face. Changmin felt like something. Ga In looked very sad. It showed by her face. Slowly, she removed the ring form her finger and give it to that guy. They looked like talked about something.

At that time, Jae Joong appeared with Hyuk Jae and Hyun Joong. He still be able to watch the scene of removal of ring. That ring. That ring that was given by himself to Ga In for blessing their relationship. Is that ring so disgusting? Jae joong felt very hurt inside. Ga In noticed Jae Joong was there. So, she just left early and act like she don’t know that Jae Joong is there. L.Joe was left behind.

And Jae Joong, without think anything... he just go and attacked L.Joe from the back. He touched L.Joe’s shoulder.

     “Yahhhh!! What’s your relationship between you and Ga In?”

 L.Joe was shocked but he still can control it. “So, you’re Hero that Ga In told me?”

     “So what if i am Hero? What is your relationship, huh?” Jae Joong asked like a rude boy.

L.joe just smile but cynical. “I am her boyfriend.”

     “MWOYA??! No. I’m her boyfriend.”

      “Are you crazy??! Are you a deaf? Pity on you... Ga In does not love you at all.... Just stay away from her. You just like disturber!” L.Joe said and walked away but Jae Joong stopped L.Joe and punch L.Joe’s face.

L.joe felt very angry and punch Jae Joong back. His lips is bleeding. L.joe just smiled. He refrain the attacked from Jae Joong. And he kicked Jae Joong back.

At that time, Changmin, Hyuk Jae and Hyun Joong back up Jae Joong. They safe Jae Joong and brings Jae Joong to their car and L.Joe just left.

     “Hyungg... what are you doingg?? You almost killed yourself.. please hyung. Don’t do that again. I know you still loving Ga In noona. But you can’t punch that guy.”

     “Shut up!!”

Both of them kept silent

***

Ga In is meditated. She still think of Jae Joong. Seriously, she madly miss him. But what can she do. She only can stare Jae Joong from a far. Nothing can she do. She make a decision to leave Jae Joong because she don’t want him to be sad. She felt very lonely and need someone to talked about. So, she did called L.Joe.

     “Yeoboseyo?”

     “Ne, Ga In-ah. Museun il-iya?”

     “Are you free now?”

     “Hmm.. Yes, i’m. I don’t have anything to do now..  Wae?”

     “It’s nothing. I just want to borrow you.”

     “Borrow me??”

     “Ne.. i just want to talked about. I feel very boring right now. Nothing to do..”

      “Hmm. Arasseo. Just wait there. I’ll picked you up at your apartment.”

     “Hmm. Annyeong..”

     “Annyeong...”

Ga In turn off the called and make a step to her closet. She’s opening that closet and take a long t-shirt to wear. Also a long skinny jeans. She put it on her body and then she looked at her face. Yeah, it totally looked so pale... Hmmm... Her heart whisper.

***

Jae Joong was about to go out of his house. He want to clear up his mind. At the same time, he wanted to hear again an explaination from Ga In’s mouth. He still can’t believe that Ga In will leave him just like that. Without any arguing. It happened full of sudden and totally make Jae Joong shocked.

Jae Joong look at his finger. That finger that wearing a ring couple. Slowly, his eyes shed a tears.

     “Hyung..”

Jae Joong shocked. He wiped his tears to avoid his maknae see that he was crying.

     “Hyung-ah..”

     “Ne... What’s up?”

     “Where are you going??”

     “Ermm.. i just want to go out. Release my stress.”

     “Hyung... i know you wanted to see Ga In noona, right?”

Jae Joong was silent. Unspeakable.

     “If that so, let me follow you...”

     “Mw..mwoya?”

     “I want to follow you. Not only me but the others hyung also..”

Jae Joong just nodded weakly.

All of them were all in the car. Changmin take part to drive the car. The atomospehere in the car to be quite untill they reach to apartment that Ga In leave. Changmin stop the car when get the car park. But there was something happened. Something bad that make Jae Joong angry and his heart hurt.

     “That’s Ga In noona with that guy....” Hyuk Jae looked at Jae Joong face.

His face looked so angry and his eyes becoming red. Jae Joong get out from the car and attacked the car owned to L.Joe.

Ga In noticed that Jae Joong was here. She was crying at that time but she wiped her tears.

     “L.Joe! Look at me. Act like we’re sweet couple.”

     “Uh.. Arasseo...” L.Joe just do his job. He touched Ga In faced.

Jae joong who was there felt like crazy. Ga In-ah.... you’re too much.. you don’t know how much i loved you........ you hurt me.. hurt my heart... He whisper in his heart.

     “Yahh!!! Get out noww!!” Jae Joong shout it loudly.

L.Joe looked at Ga In.

     “Kiss me L.Joe.. jebal.. kiss me...”

     “Are you serious?”

     “Its only fake, chingu-ah.. jebal.. i need to prove to him that he doesn’t mean to me anymore.

L.Joe nodded and act like they kiss in real whereas it just an action. FAKE!

Jae Joong was shocked saw that kiss scene between L.Joe and Ga In.

     “Ga In-ahh. You’re too much. How dare you do something like that..... Uhh... Ga In-ah!!!” Jae Joong go near to the car and open the car door. He pulled Ga In’s hand to get her out of the car. L.Joe and Ga In was shocked.

     “Ga In-ahhh! Why are you being like this??!”

     “Let go of my hands, Hero! It’s hurt!”

     “No! I will not let go of your hands until you tell the truth..”

     “There’s nothing to talked about. Also we have nothing to be relate, right!”

L.Joe who see that kind of action, goes out from the car.

     “Hey, Hero. Let go of her hands.”

     “Huh, it’s up to me.”

L.Joe feel so pity on Ga In when look at her face. L.Joe go near to GD and snapping Jae Joong’s hands from hold hard Ga In’s hands. Ga In brought in to his arms. Ga In just let L.Joe do like that.

     “Please don’t hurt her anymore. And please don’t disturb her...”

     “Mwoya??! Huhhh.. Ga In-ahh... This is my last word to you.. Are you still loving me or not??”

Ga In does not give any answer. She just kept silent in L.Joe’s arm. Jae Joong sighed weakly.

     “You totally leave me Ga In.... now i know... you’re not loving me.. with your action just make my heart knows that.... Thanks for all this.. thanks for everything that given by you before. The happiness that we make together... From now on, i will never see you... never disturb you.. and try to forget you even it so hard... And i thought that you never appear in my life. Goodbye Ga In...”

Jae Joong walked away left Ga In behind. He just walked without any attention and destination. Changmin and the others who was in the car just let Jae Joong go. They all knows Jae Joong need some times to be alone.

***

Ga In hand hold by L.Joe. L.Joe brings Ga In back to her apartment.

     “Do you need me to accompany you?”

Ga In shook her head.

     “Neaga arasseo... Take care Ga In-ah.. if there any problem, just press 1 to contact my number..”

     “Ara...”

      “Hmm. Annyeong..” L.Joe left Ga In. 

After L.Joe left, the tear was defained since before, finally flowing out. She crying loudly. The words that coming out from Jae Joong mouth hurt her heart.

     “Hero-ah.... i didn’t mean to do something like this to you.... it happened suddenly. I have to stop our relationship... it’s better if i the only one who hurt... i’m willing cry lonely from seeing your sad face and your tears.. your tears must hurt me a lot... Miahne... miahne.... Hero-ah..... I’m still loving you... Yeah... i’m still loving you...”

One by one the memories has been created by Ga In and Jae Joong plays in front of Ga In’s eyes. It must be a very hard moment. It’s not easy to g through with all this lonely.

Ga In leaning against the wall. She must be tired. Even she was tired, her eyes still flowing a tears. Slowly, Ga In holding her hair. Her hair was falling. She’s crying went looked at her hair that has been falling. This is the reason why i have to leave you..... She said while crying.

     “Hero-ah......” She shout Jae Joong’s name and crying.

***

He just walked without any direction to go. Jae joong is walking in the crowded area. His mind is empty. Really empty. He is not thinking anything. He was about going to die. He doesn’t care anything and just walked away. He just bumping into people who block his way.

After that, he back home. At the midnight. He make everyone worried about him.

     “Hyung.. where did you go?”

Jae Joong pushed Hyuk Jae away who has block his way. He just step to his room and enter his room. He strongly pushed the door and locked the door. Hyuk Jae speechless. But he just let it be because he know Jae Joong condition.

     “Hmm.. I need to go out. Both of you also. We’ve to give him a private times...”

     “But, hyung...”

     “Don’t make any excuse...”

     “Arraseo...”

Hyuk Jae pulled Changmin to go with him out of the apartment.

In his room, Jae Joong crying. “Whyyy!!!! Ga In-ahh..... you’re really cruel. You hurt my heart. You know i cry because you’re my all... you’re my love.... you’re my heart.. jebal...... Ga In-ah..... you know it was hard to me to forget you....”

Jae Joong felt very angry so he take it all away the things in front of him and throw it out.

Pranggg!!!! The mirror is broken because the chair struck it.

His room was in good organized before becoming uncluttered. 

Arghhh!!! SHITTT!!! I HATE YOU, GA IN-AHHHH!!!!!!

He shout loudly. He sat on the sofa one-seater. He touched his head. The other hand touched his chest. Why it felt so hurt? Why!!!

After that, Jae joong stands up and steps to the bathroom. He wet himself with the shower that flowing out from above. Then, Jae Joong looked in front of him. There is a mirror. That mirror which is showing himself. He touched the mirror. It felt like he touched his owned face. But it just only a shadow of himself. Suddenly, Ga In appear.

     “Ga In-ah.. Oh no!!! Arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!” When the shadow of Ga In dissapear.. he punched the mirror hardly. Then the mirror is broken down. His hands was bleeding. He just let it be. He is crying. How painful he is.

***

After a few months, Jae Joong are not seeing Ga In anymore. He did like what he said to Ga In before. But his life being so messed. Ga In felt so sad. She luckly had L.Joe beside her. Ga In condition becoming worse and she need to make an operation quickly.

     “Hmm. you’re in warded.”

     “Yeahh. L.Joe-ah..

     “Hmm?”

     “This time, Hero still not coming and try to searched me?”

L.Joe slowly shook his head. It must be hurt both of them, Ga In and Jae Joong.

     “Hmm... Just sleep Ga In-ah. You must very tired...” L.Joe correct Ga In’s beanie hat. Beanie hat is the accessory to cover Ga In head. Her head has no hair anymore.. it just a little left. It is because of her chemotraphy. The things that can make her diseases, brain cancer slowly separate.

     “Yeah.. but i’m not tired at all..”

     “Ga In-ahh... you’ve to rest.. this day you have to make an operation also...”

     “no... i don’t want to sleep but i want to see your face... Hmm.. Where is HyukJae, Changmin and Hyun Joong? Where are they?”

Ga In is asking for her maknae. Three of them really nice to her even her relationship between their hyung already broken out. L.Joe informed them about her is being warded for a week ago. So, they’re coming but still not come in.

     “They are at the outside. They really wanted to see you..”

     “Really? Me also.. hmm.. call them in..”

L.Joe nodded and called three of them.

     “Noonaa....” Changmin run to Ga In and hug her tightly.

     “Hmm... i really miss you, dongsaeng...”

Changmin nodded while in Ga In’s arm.

HyukJae just stands in front of the door. he feel so sad and feel guilty. And he did think he really know why Ga In make a decision to broke off with his hyung, Jae Joong. While Hyun Joong just sit stands beside L.Joe.

     “Miahne... Noona really miss all of you..” She stared the face in the ward one by one. Of course, she will miss that face. L.Joe is the best friend ever she had. Changmin, Hyuk Jae and Hyun Joong. All of them had some memories in Ga In diary of her life.

Ga In still looked happy and cheerful girl like before. Even though she had go throught a hard moment by herself after this.

     “L.Joe.....”

     “Hmm?”

Ga In removal the ring couples. Actually, when she was doing that before just wanted Jae Joong to saw that. That’s the way to make Jae Joong believe. Jae Joong knows Ga In loves that ring so much. So, she make an action removal the rings and give it to L.Joe. L.Joe just hold it for a while. After Jae Joong said that he will not see Ga In anymore, L.Joe give it back to Ga In and Ga In wear it like before. The day she being together with Jae Joong before. When she wear the rings, she feel like Jae Joong stay by her side.

Day by day, she go throught all this alone. Her world fill with empty. Nothing she do. Only waiting the death come to take her. Everyone don’t know about what she felt. Only L.Joe. L.Joe took care of her. Everything.

     “Hmm.. take this ring and give to Jae Joong while i do  a surgery...”

     “Uh?”

     “Tell him that i loved him so much... sorry for doing this to him... say this word if i die... if i’m not living anymore..”

     “Noonaa! Why are you saying like that... jeba.. don’t say that kind of word..”

Ga In smiled. “Hehehehe. Don’t worry, Max. Nothing happened. I need you to pray for me... all of you...”

     “Noonaa.....” Max hug Ga In again. Ga In’s tears flowing out...

L.Joe wiped his tears which is going to flow out. He covered so, the others will not noticed that he cried.
HyukJae who is just standing in fron of the door felt so guilty. He need to tell Jae Joong. He don’t want Jae Joong feel regret because in this surgery.. it take high risk. Maybe Ga In will die will doing a surgery. Better he make a called now because Ga In is about to go to surgery’s room.

     “Noonaa.. i’ve to go for awhile. I’ll comeback here as soon as possible.”

Ga In just nodded.

While he think it was far a way from the ward, he make a called.

HyukJae need to wait for awhile because Jae Joong doesn’t pick up his calling. After four times he try out, at last Jae Joong pick up his call.

      “Yeoboseyo?”

     “Ne.. Hyung...”

     “Huh.. what’s up? And where are you going?”

     “Hmm. We’re in the hospital..”

     “MWOYA??!!! Wae?? Who is sick? Max? Joong?”

     “Noo...”

      “Then who??”

      “Noonaa...”

      “Did you mean Ga In has been hospitalized?

      “Ne, hyung.. please come faster. Palli hyungg! Noona is going to make a surgery... Her suffered with her 
own disease. Brain cancer, hyung.... Jebal hyung.. She really want to see you.... ”

      “B..b..brai..n C..ancer...... Wae? Wae-yo? Why she didn’t told me about this... Ga In-ah.....”
Jae Joong’s tears slowly flowing out. He felt regret. Jae Joong turn off the phone. His heart feel so hurt now. Very hurt than before.

     “Hyung-ah? Hyung-ah..

The calling has been end up. Jae Joong does not think anything accept Ga In. Then, he run to the hospital. It such a long way to run. But what can he do. He does not have any time anymore. All of he can do is run. Run to get Ga In. Why Ga In do not tell me about thiss. Arghh! Ga In-ah.. please wait for me... please stands with all of this.. i know you;re strong... Jebal.... Jae Joong whisper in his heart while he is running away to hospital.

It’s takes thirty minutes to arrived there....

Jae Joong run to get Ga In. But when he had arrived, he meet with L.Joe who was about to going somewhere and both of them against walk. When they’re very close, Jae Joong have nothing to say so he just walk straight a way but L.Joe grab his hand. Jae Joong turn to L.Joe.

     “Hmm. Miahne for everything.”

Jae Joong blurr.

     “Sorry for lying you before. Ga Inn.. really loves you. So much...” L.Joe put the ring on the Jae Joongs hand.

Jae Joong shocked. L.Joe just go and left Jae Joong. Then he run to get Ga In but it’s already late. Ga In is in the surgery’s room now. HyukJae, Hyun Joong and Changmin looked at Jae Joong. Jae Joong felt like want to cry.

      “Ga In-ah...” Jae Joong looked at the door of the surgery’s room.

      “Be patient, hyung...”

      “But.. Ga In... Ga In is in there. I want to go there...” Jae Joong was about to broke the door but HyukJae hold him tightly.

     “Please hyung.. just pray her safe... Jebal...”

His tear flowing out crazily. “I wanted to see Ga In-ah... Jeball... I was wrong.. i thought she really hate me... and really want to leave mee.... Ga In-ahh........”

     “Hyungg.. don’t do that hyung. She still do a surgery.” HyukJae also cry when see his hyung becoming like this. it was so hurt and hard. One by one memories between Ga In and Jae Joong plays in Jae Joong’s mind. He leading against the world and sat on the floor. The other felt so sad too.

***

Ga In felt so afraid when she was in the surgery’s room. But she have to be strong to go all of this. when the light is opened, she slowly remind about her memories with Jae Joong. Memory that Jae Joong was giving her a ring couple. It’s look so sweet and beautiful. After that, she had play around and joke around with Jae Joong. It was so happy at that time. If can, she want to be back at that time. And she want the time just stop there and doesn’t move at all. That’s all she want.

When the doctor was doing a surgery, she half-wake. She just stare at the cyling. When the surgery was about to finished, she can felt that times had comes. Slowly, all the memories comes out of her mind. Her eyes was about to closed. Her sight becoming dark. It slowly dark untill she couldn’t see anything.

The graf of her heart beat is not up and now anymore. It just straight and sound like tit. The doctor was shocked.

Titttttt.............................................

She not breathe anymore. Her eyes closed. But her tears was flowing out. Just once and it stop.

The doctor comfirmed that Ga In is not alive anyomore. She already die. Nothing they can do.

Jae Joong and the others waiting crazily at outside of the surgery.

The door is opening. The nurse pulled the bed out. On the bed, there is Ga In. Ga In is not awake. Jae Joong felt so scare.

     “I’m sorry. We can’t safe her......”

     “Mwo.. mwoya? Ga In..... Gajima.... Please wake up.... baby girl... You know... i cry.. i cry you’re my 
all.. say goodbye.. don’t lie..... it’s a lie... a lie.... Gajimaaa... Ga In-ahhh!!!!” Jae Joong cry again. He hug Ga In’s body. He shake Ga In’s body but Hyun Joong hold him. Don’t let him to do that.

     “Please hyung.... Don’t do this...” Jae Joong crying in Hyun Joong’s arm.

      “Ga In... Ga In, Joong.. She is gone... She is gone...”

      “Hyung.... jebal....”

       “Ga In-ah..... Why are you leaving me? You let me hate you even though i can’t hate you.. you let me thought that you’re a bad girl.. why? If i knows about this, i will take care of you... for the rest of my life... why you make me feel regret?” Jae Joong was about to get Ga In back but Hyun Joong hold him with the other helps.

Jae Joong slowly sing a song that he compose to Ga In when he is in complicated relationship with Ga In.

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(Say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bigbang/haru_haru_english_version.html ]
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye... 

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye

After singing that song, he goes out. The other just looked at him with the sadness face.

      “Where are you going?”

      “I just going to take some breathe.”

Before Jae Joong leave, he kiss Ga In forehead.

He just walked without any direction. He just followed where are his leg wanted to go.

Like a crazy day, it comes without any signal. Jae Joong fill empty in his heart. He’s crying when think that Ga In is not in this world. Suddenly, a car come from back which is driving so fast violate Jae Joong’s back and Jae Joong be caromed. His head hit hard on the road. There is a lot of blood coming out from his head.

     “Ga In-ah……”

Jae Joong dead at the scene. 
GD as Jae Joong

Eunhyuk as HyukJae

Sung Min as Hyun Joong

 L.Joe as L.Joe
 Hyo Jin as Ga In
Kevin as Max Changmin

Created by : Maddi Jane
It just a fan fiction. ^_^. 
#don't try to take this story because i owned this story. And sorry for my worse grammar and english. :)